 Why
is it, I keep wondering, that it seems like I’m
always sabotaging my own success? My guides are
always telling me, ‘Wendy, stop beating
yourself up.’ ‘Well, gee thanks,’
I retort. ‘I would if I could.’
Wouldn’t I? Doesn’t seem that easy,
does it? Or is it?
What is ego? What is this extension of myself
that always seems to be in the way? No matter
what I do, there always is a voce that returns
to my head, telling me that ‘it’s
not good enough’.
How do I silence that voice? I prefer the loving
voice of my heart, or the wisdom of my guides-
I love hearing them in my head.
So why does this nasty voice of my ego insist
on continuing to return to me? It seems as if
every time I clear an issue, and think I’m
done with it…there it is, back again. And
I don’t know about you, but it’s always
the same issue for me- Mother’s Guilt!
No matter what I do, I feel like I’m never
doing enough. Do they love themselves enough to
withstand the pressures of others? Do they believe
enough in themselves, to be strong in the face
of adversity? If given the choice, would they
choose compassion, empathy, truth, respect, love….and
on, and on, and on.
Why is it that I feel responsible for instilling
all of these values in my children? Why do I feel
like they need to have them all now? Why do I
feel like I’ve failed if they’re not
showing them now?
Pressure. Pressure I put on myself- pressure to
be perfect.
Sure, I think, I know that everyone is perfect
exactly how they are, for the lessons they need
to learn. I do understand that perfection is a
perceived state of being, and actually in truth,
we are all perfect right now. I get that; I understand
it. So, how come it won’t permeate past
the point where ‘the voice’ doesn’t
come back any more?
‘Ego,’ I’m
told. ‘My ego wants me to fail. My ego is
selfish, arrogant, rude, demeaning, and negative.
It’s angry that I desire to live in the
light; I desire to be love.’
The soul that I am is love, as is yours. It’s
the ego that prevents us from seeing this.
So, how do I get rid of my ego? Don’t I
need it in order to survive? I’ve heard
many say, ‘we’re human- we’ve
been given free will, and part of that is to be
living with the understanding that our ego is
an essential part of us.’
Hmmm…I don’t like this ‘essential’
part of me. I love living in the magic, synchronicity,
and joy that life has to offer, when I know that
I am living in the parallel truth of my higher
self. When I allow my heart to guide me, and my
spirit to speak through me, I experience wonder,
love, and am often overwhelmed by the beauty of
everything. So, why must I incorporate ego into
my existence?
‘You don’t.’
I’m currently being told. ‘But,’
I say, ‘I thought I had no choice.’
‘No.’ the loving voice continues,
‘you may release your ego over to God- over
to your angels- over to the unified universal
consciousness. You may release your ego over to
the power that you desire to be higher than you.
You can do it. And you can live in peace, harmony,
and understanding all of the time. You don’t
need to keep your ego, for as you know, keeping
your ego ‘in check’ is very difficult.’
So why not release it? Daily, I’m told.
Choose to hand it over in the morning, before
you start your day. And in the evening before
bed- forgive yourself for when it crept back in.
That’s ok- it’s part of the process;
we’re all here to learn. And then release
it, so that you may have a wonderful night of
uplifting, or insightful dreams.
Your soul, and higher self, is constantly guiding
you to this state of bliss. We must just be willing
to take the required actions, and do so.
Sounds simple? Too simple? It’s not.
Reality is just your perception of that which
you believe. You can change your reality by changing
your perception. Immediately. Choose it.
Choose to release your ego, and you are choosing
love.
Bye- bye mother’s guilt for me. Hello knowing
that everything I do is important, not only for
their growth and development, but for mine as
well. We are all perfect right now, for what we
need to be learning.
There truly are no mistakes, just lessons. And
we truly don’t deserve to punish ourselves
for them. We just need to choose to do things
differently, and learn from them.
When we correct ourselves, we teach our children
to do the same- so that they will grow up to release
their own guilt, instead of punishing themselves.
And as time goes by, they too will learn to release
their egos, and live always in their heart- their
higher self, knowing their connection with all
there is, and ever will be.
My ego tells me it’s hard to change. Do
I listen? Not anymore.
Now I choose to believe that it is easy. Good-bye
ego, good-bye. |
Copyright 2008 Wendy Mewhort |
